Wednesday, June 17, 2009

a poem a found in my old poem book. written in sixth grade before all of this

Sometimes. 
I wish I were 
skinnier. 
Even though 
I am super skinny. 

Sometimes. 
I don't like 
being skinny. 
Because 
people call 
me anorexic. 

Sometimes. 
I wish 
I could 
be anorexic. 
But I have 
no self 
control. 

Sometimes. 
I have 
extra oreos 
to gain weight. 

Sometimes. 
I skip my oreos 
to make 
my self 
feel pretty. 

Sometimes. 
I pretend 
not to like when 
people say" oh 
your so skinny." 

Sometimes. 
on the 
inside thats the 
best compliment 
I can get. 

Sometimes. 
I worry that 
I could 
fa- 
de 
aw- 
ay. 

into nothing . 

yeah its not very good. but really?

Sometimes 
I wish 
I would. 


wow its not very good... but wow...

ps. current stats 86 pounds. why am i not happy? this is what i wanted right?

7 comments:

  1. I like it!!! you can see the story behind it for sure!

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  2. wow it's crazy that you wrote that long ago. i keep reading through my old journals and i come across entries like 'i think people would love me more if i were thinner' and 'do not eat this week, only drink tea' i can't believe i said these things when i was so much younger..

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  3. I loved your sixth grade poem :)
    (k)

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  4. Your not happy because body image has nothing to do with actual size/weight of your body. To have good body image (be happy with your body) you have to find it mentally.

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  5. omg I love this so much!! it's so raw and so childlike! I feel like this A LOTT!!

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