poem

Sometimes I crave for my body to be emaciated. 
A shrunken shriveled withered body. 
Is what I desire. 
When my ribs protrude 
I feel happy. 
But am i really? 
I ache for the 
feeling of hunger. 
I am in control. 

a poem a found in my old poem book. written in sixth grade before all of this

Sometimes. 
I wish I were 
skinnier. 
Even though 
I am super skinny. 

Sometimes. 
I don't like 
being skinny. 
Because 
people call 
me anorexic. 

Sometimes. 
I wish 
I could 
be anorexic. 
But I have 
no self 
control. 

Sometimes. 
I have 
extra oreos 
to gain weight. 

Sometimes. 
I skip my oreos 
to make 
my self 
feel pretty. 

Sometimes. 
I pretend 
not to like when 
people say" oh 
your so skinny." 

Sometimes. 
on the 
inside thats the 
best compliment 
I can get. 

Sometimes. 
I worry that 
I could 
fa- 
de 
aw- 
ay. 

into nothing . 

yeah its not very good. but really?

Sometimes 
I wish 
I would. 

wow its not very good... but wow...

ps. current stats 86 pounds. why am i not happy? this is what i wanted right?

current stats

87 pounds 

bmi of 14.9

exersising

Hey girlies and guyss <3

I ran 2 miles today and walked 1 mile. Tommrow ill do better. Ill run 1.5 miles in the am. In the afternoon. Ill ran 1.5 miles again and in the evening ill run two miles. Total of 5 miles a day which is good. Im planning a fast so if you have any ideas comment me. If you wanna talk leave me a comment and ill give you my e-mail. 

Tommrows food plan::

11 am - 1/2 of tea mixed with seltzer = 0 cals

12- run 1.5 miles

1pm - Drink rest of seltzer tea

2pm - 80 calorie yogurt

3pm - Go out with friends/shopping

4pm - run 1.5 miles ( have vitamins 10 cals)

5pm - distract self

6pm - cereal with milk - 160 cal

7pm - make more selter tea

8pm- run two miles

9pm - fruit ( 3o-70 cals)

total calorie intake -  320- 280

5

Plan for Today ( 6/14/09)

105 cal breakfast - Special K Red Berries and Milk and 1 glass water 

80 cal snack ( yogurt)

35 cal snack ( carrots, 1 cup)

Lunch 100 cal scrambled egg with 1 piece bread - 180

Dinner- 100 cal salad. 

Snack - 50 cal 1/2 apple

= 550 calories today.

Exercise:                            

 200 jumping jacks 

200 sqauts 

100 situps 

200 biycyles 

running 3.14 miles 

100 leg lifts each side 

Goals and Rules

Heyy everyone

yes im ana but if your here to tell me to get better then please dont come here at all, and if your here to get an eating disorder please dont do this to yourself!

Goals:

 Be 86 pounds in 9 days. Exercising each day. Preferably 7x a week minimum of 5x. This means 651 calories a day to reach that goal. Plan meals ahead of time. Fast Monday. ( Think of fasting plan) Get the extra exercise in. ( stairs, walking ect) ALWAYS leave a few bites of food left. Morning and evening situps, jumping jack, leg lifts.  Running in the AM. Running in the PM. = 3 miles of running per day. 

Rules: Fasting only one time per week. Except when fasting you need to have at least 400 calories a day. 400 - 651 is good range. Getting more then 6 hours of sleep each day is important. 

Current Stats:

5'4

91.5 Pounds.

more tomorrow. good night =]

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