Sometimes.
I wish I were
skinnier.
Even though
I am super skinny.
Sometimes.
I don't like
being skinny.
Because
people call
me anorexic.
Sometimes.
I wish
I could
be anorexic.
But I have
no self
control.
Sometimes.
I have
extra oreos
to gain weight.
Sometimes.
I skip my oreos
to make
my self
feel pretty.
Sometimes.
I pretend
not to like when
people say" oh
your so skinny."
Sometimes.
on the
inside thats the
best compliment
I can get.
Sometimes.
I worry that
I could
fa-
de
aw-
ay.
into nothing .
I wish I were
skinnier.
Even though
I am super skinny.
Sometimes.
I don't like
being skinny.
Because
people call
me anorexic.
Sometimes.
I wish
I could
be anorexic.
But I have
no self
control.
Sometimes.
I have
extra oreos
to gain weight.
Sometimes.
I skip my oreos
to make
my self
feel pretty.
Sometimes.
I pretend
not to like when
people say" oh
your so skinny."
Sometimes.
on the
inside thats the
best compliment
I can get.
Sometimes.
I worry that
I could
fa-
de
aw-
ay.
into nothing .
yeah its not very good. but really?
Sometimes
I wish
I would.
Sometimes
I wish
I would.
wow its not very good... but wow...
ps. current stats 86 pounds. why am i not happy? this is what i wanted right?
I like it!!! you can see the story behind it for sure!
ReplyDeleteI like it. :)
ReplyDeletewow it's crazy that you wrote that long ago. i keep reading through my old journals and i come across entries like 'i think people would love me more if i were thinner' and 'do not eat this week, only drink tea' i can't believe i said these things when i was so much younger..
ReplyDeleteI loved your sixth grade poem :)
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that's an awesome poem!
ReplyDeleteYour not happy because body image has nothing to do with actual size/weight of your body. To have good body image (be happy with your body) you have to find it mentally.
ReplyDeleteomg I love this so much!! it's so raw and so childlike! I feel like this A LOTT!!
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