Wednesday, June 17, 2009
poem
Sometimes I crave for my body to be emaciated.
A shrunken shriveled withered body.
Is what I desire.
When my ribs protrude
I feel happy.
But am i really?
I ache for the
feeling of hunger.
I am in control.
a poem a found in my old poem book. written in sixth grade before all of this
Sometimes.
I wish I were
skinnier.
Even though
I am super skinny.
Sometimes.
I don't like
being skinny.
Because
people call
me anorexic.
Sometimes.
I wish
I could
be anorexic.
But I have
no self
control.
Sometimes.
I have
extra oreos
to gain weight.
Sometimes.
I skip my oreos
to make
my self
feel pretty.
Sometimes.
I pretend
not to like when
people say" oh
your so skinny."
Sometimes.
on the
inside thats the
best compliment
I can get.
Sometimes.
I worry that
I could
fa-
de
aw-
ay.
into nothing .
I wish I were
skinnier.
Even though
I am super skinny.
Sometimes.
I don't like
being skinny.
Because
people call
me anorexic.
Sometimes.
I wish
I could
be anorexic.
But I have
no self
control.
Sometimes.
I have
extra oreos
to gain weight.
Sometimes.
I skip my oreos
to make
my self
feel pretty.
Sometimes.
I pretend
not to like when
people say" oh
your so skinny."
Sometimes.
on the
inside thats the
best compliment
I can get.
Sometimes.
I worry that
I could
fa-
de
aw-
ay.
into nothing .
yeah its not very good. but really?
Sometimes
I wish
I would.
Sometimes
I wish
I would.
wow its not very good... but wow...
ps. current stats 86 pounds. why am i not happy? this is what i wanted right?
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
exersising
Hey girlies and guyss <3
I ran 2 miles today and walked 1 mile. Tommrow ill do better. Ill run 1.5 miles in the am. In the afternoon. Ill ran 1.5 miles again and in the evening ill run two miles. Total of 5 miles a day which is good. Im planning a fast so if you have any ideas comment me. If you wanna talk leave me a comment and ill give you my e-mail.
Tommrows food plan::
11 am - 1/2 of tea mixed with seltzer = 0 cals
12- run 1.5 miles
1pm - Drink rest of seltzer tea
2pm - 80 calorie yogurt
3pm - Go out with friends/shopping
4pm - run 1.5 miles ( have vitamins 10 cals)
5pm - distract self
6pm - cereal with milk - 160 cal
7pm - make more selter tea
8pm- run two miles
9pm - fruit ( 3o-70 cals)
total calorie intake - 320- 280
5
Sunday, June 14, 2009
Plan for Today ( 6/14/09)
105 cal breakfast - Special K Red Berries and Milk and 1 glass water
80 cal snack ( yogurt)
35 cal snack ( carrots, 1 cup)
Lunch 100 cal scrambled egg with 1 piece bread - 180
Dinner- 100 cal salad.
Snack - 50 cal 1/2 apple
= 550 calories today.
Exercise:
200 jumping jacks
200 sqauts
100 situps
200 biycyles
running 3.14 miles
100 leg lifts each side
Saturday, June 13, 2009
Goals and Rules
Heyy everyone
yes im ana but if your here to tell me to get better then please dont come here at all, and if your here to get an eating disorder please dont do this to yourself!
Be 86 pounds in 9 days. Exercising each day. Preferably 7x a week minimum of 5x. This means 651 calories a day to reach that goal. Plan meals ahead of time. Fast Monday. ( Think of fasting plan) Get the extra exercise in. ( stairs, walking ect) ALWAYS leave a few bites of food left. Morning and evening situps, jumping jack, leg lifts. Running in the AM. Running in the PM. = 3 miles of running per day.
Rules: Fasting only one time per week. Except when fasting you need to have at least 400 calories a day. 400 - 651 is good range. Getting more then 6 hours of sleep each day is important.
Current Stats:
5'4
91.5 Pounds.
more tomorrow. good night =]
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